Insomnia Meets the Mountains

I came across some photo files that I had completely forgotten about...such a tragedy when that happens... and they immediately took me back to a time - a wonderful time in my college years as a photography student. 

I remember specifically that I was going through this strange period of insomnia in the fall of 2014. I simply could not sleep and I had no idea why. I believe the insomnia lasted for a good week. I'd lay awake all night doing everything I could to fall asleep. Until one night, or rather the early morning, I decided I might as well be up if I was going to be awake anyway. So I drove up to Sundance (Utah) to watch the sunrise. It was the most glorious fall morning! I remembered being utterly stunned by the beauty and quietness during the first light of day; something I wasn't that well acquainted with at the time. 

I think that sunrise adventure cured me of my insomnia then. It must have been something I needed at the time. 

As John Muir said, "Keep close to Nature’s heart... and break clear away, once in awhile, and climb a mountain or spend a week in the woods. Wash your spirit clean.

 

Fuji Film

I found an unused roll of fuji film in my big tote of photography stuff and I honestly have no idea why I'd have a roll of that crummy film. Apparently it was really old (by how grainy and green the photos turned out), but I thought, what the heck - let's shoot a roll! 

There is something so raw, authentic, and permanent about a photo shot on film no matter how terrible the film is. Film will always hold a sweet place in my photo world heart. 

For starters, I think this is one of my favorite photographs of my younger brother holding my sweet baby. I think this shot captures his face and his gentleness better than any photo I've taken of him lately. 

Enjoy the rest!

The Face of Love

This couple couldn't stop smiling at each other their entire wedding day. It was the most endearing thing in the world and I could just feel love emanating from both of them. They were absolutely glowing! It would bring a tear to anyone's eye watching. 

Here are some (there really were too many to share ALL of them) of my favorite candid shots with those passing glances of true love. 

 

American Summers

I went to a rodeo last night. And there was one thing I was looking for while I was there - funnel cakes and other fried goodness. It's what screams summer to me, and is more American than ever. I wasn't even the least bit hungry, but you just have to have these artery clogging snacks when you're sitting and relaxing outside on a summer night reveling in some American pastime. Needless to say I found it and I was satisfied. 

Happy July y'all!

 

The Nelson's

I often feel like the parents or the grandparents don't always recognize the importance of their portraits as a couple. As parents. And as grandparents. It's not only family history but it's the story of love and family. 

I thought these portraits of this couple during a big family photo session turned out so lovely and regal. What a good looking couple with such a fun family! 

 

Head Shots

Took some head shots recently for a friend going into acting. I may have created a white backdrop on a $0 budget. 

 

It's Been Awhile

It really is a struggle to keep up with a blog, but honestly it's because I haven't had much of a chance lately to get out and photograph anything besides my beautiful little baby, which it pains me to admit most of my photo-taking of her is done on my phone. They're the best pictures and yet they are the worst quality. The thing is, when I pull out my "big honker" (aka:professional camera) she won't crack a smile. No matter what tactics I use, she won't smile. It's hilarious. 

Wow, look at me ramble on about my child... Typical mom/parent right there... But I guess I have no shame. She makes my world spin round and her smile brings me constant joy. I have been mommy-ing it up lately. I spend my days hanging out with this little one and it's delightful. She squeals and jabbers on and on most days, so don't think I don't have someone talking to me and keeping me company all day. Haha 

This is me and her chillin' on our teeny tiny balcony this gorgeous spring evening. She didn't know what to think about her seating arrangement...

I hope you enjoy that chubby face of hers...and all her other rolls. I personally can't get enough of them. 

Sunsets

Raise your hand if you love sunsets? Or better yet, pictures of sunsets?! I'm pretty sure I get more Instagram likes of pictures of sunsets than I do anything else.

Who can't help but stop and appreciate a sunset? It comes to us at the most sublime time of day - after we've either slaved away at a job or played hard and are ready to settle in for the evening. It's the perfect way to reflect on the day and hope for another day to live and to see another glorious sunset. 

I have been filtering through loads of files of photos on my external hard drive and CLEARLY I stopped to look at a sunset or two, and of course, take a picture. Sometimes I think it's pointless to take pictures of sunsets because we will always see them, but I've decided these sunsets of days long gone I happened to take a picture of are too beautiful not to share! 

 

When Life Hits You

I read this on Tumblr today. I remember a specific moment in my life when this exact feeling and thought entered my mind. It was sort of a scary moment, to be honest. I loved where I was at in my own new life I was building, but I was also sad...or maybe reluctant? I didn't want to leave behind the comfort of home sweet home, and the child I was, and being at home where my mother had given me a beautiful life too, however badly I wanted to break away and start my own life... It's a complicated and emotional realization. Anyway, this little blip below finally put into words what I wanted to say a few years ago...

"Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else, but just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes."  [THE WINTER OF THE AIR(VIA ALUNIT)]

 

A city stroll & a roll of film

I found a random picture folder in my files in a place on my computer it shouldn’t have been, which I had completely forgotten about. I loved looking at these photographs I shot on a roll of Ektar 100 film (my favorite). I had taken them at a nice point in my life. I had just gotten settled into a new job, I was working and living in the city that I had been wanting to live in for a long time… Things were new for me. It was a time for fresh starts.

I had gone for a walk around Salt Lake City after I had gotten off work taking pictures and just enjoying myself. I miss that moment in my life. I was completely free and I remember feeling refreshed and excited…excited about the unknown… These pictures don’t show really express that, but when I look at them, it takes me right back to that day and I remember the things I was feeling.

Cecret Lake

I shot these pictures on a roll of Ektar 100 film - the most gorgeous, crisp, and vibrant colored roll of film! Basically it's my favorite, so if you are into film photography you better check it out.

I went to Cecret Lake with this male model on the most perfect day last fall and I am eager to visit again this spring. It's a quick, little, super easy hike in and the view is just stunning. It's located up Little Cottonwood Canyon in Utah. 

 

Fisher Towers

Located northeast of Moab near a little campground called "Hittle Bottom Campground" is this gorgeous place called Fisher Towers. It feels completely random and it's absolutely stunning and I just happened to be passing through during every photography lover's favorite time of day - the golden hour! I didn't have time to really explore too deeply inside the red rock wonder, but I got some pretty shots as the sun was setting.